numb

Why is it so hard for you?

To properly see me trying?

I get shocked to see. How much I can hurt because of you

My days are a struggle. Even my dreams are painful

It if was you, how would it be?

If these crazy days

Became yours?

If you break down as much as me

Will you know?

All the pain that fills me

To the point where my heart is about to explode

How much I want you?

If I was you. I would just love me

My heart is endlessly down in the ground

I’m afraid of everything that surrounds me

They say you’ll be happy when you fall in love

Who said that?

Because I only know a love

That looks at you from behind

I know you already answered me

I know the meaning of an answer-less answer

But I pretend not to know and I’m lingering

Do you know how I’m doing these days?

I can’t even fall asleep. I can’t even swallow anything

Do you know that I’m becoming more ruined

As I look at you? I feel like dying

Even though there’s no way you’ll come to me

Even though I know you’re looking somewhere else

I don’t think I can let go of you